Xmas morning. Woke up without knowing what to do with the day. I could really feel how my mind started to get grey and moody for no obvious reason. However, since I am working on being less of a roller coaster emotionally and be as good with my mood as I am with my lifestyle, I started repeating for myself all the things I am lucky to have. Friends, food, entertainment, health and I have a home. In the country of my dreams.

It’s strange. I am working on analyzing myself because there is no reason to be extremely upbeat and happy one day and then totally low and down the next. Not if no actual disaster took place…

Cardio this morning was: 30 min stepmill. 10 x 70 steps on level 20.

Workout this evening: deadlifts. hamstring. Good performance but I was not on top today. I hate to admit it and I guess I will never accept it fully that you cannot outperform yourself every single time. I will always strive for it since it’s my nature, but accepting that truth? Oh no, no reason to. It’s not like I’ll die if I do bad during a workout, but it will for sure make me pissed and snappy. And nobody including myself likes to hang around a snappy Pauline Nordin. I tell you that! Many times have I told myself outloud “come one you lazy M-F, just move that darn weight!!! How hard can it be huh? Just LIFT it, deal with it so we can go home and be happy tonight!!!”. And since I try to stay out of grumpy moments, well, there aint nothing else to do than to just push that iron and not think twice about if it’s appropriate or not.

One thing that I keep on improving each year is getting better at not wondering what is wrong with me if I perform less good one workout than the one the week before. It’s natural to assume strength keeps on going up and up and up and up but then BOOM, yes, the stagnation….  Beginners tend to believe they will be super strong after a year since the initial strength increase is really positive. Then, the longer you train, the more you need to push to even lift a little pound more or to do one extra rep. Heck, suddenly you should be grateful for doing a single one rep on one set of one exercise…. talk about changing standards! LOL

Enough babbling. I need to eat. sayonara.