When I was younger I used to surf the internet checking message boards and what people wrote about me. I remember how it hurt to read about my so called obvious drug abuse, my steroid-face, and how I just had no idea about what I was doing. With time I stopped looking for people’s comments, I stopped clicking links sent to me from “friendly” fans who wanted me to justify myself and stand up for my beliefs on these boards. For so long did I try to defend myself, prove to everyone how wrong they were, so much energy I gave all these haters who had never ever met me, never talked to me, yet they knew exactly my agenda and history.

It takes a lot of mental toughness to endure false accusations without turning bitter. It takes a lot of persistence and positive thinking when all your work and writing is being smashed by the “know it all public eye” who tell me to stop writing because I write like I’m a third grade student who has never seen or learned any grammar at all. This comes from Americans who most of the time don’t know any other languages than their own….

Behind all these computer screens people sit in private, don’t need to back anything up and if they do have to they can just research and copy paste a link to references and science notes and get away with it. yet they claim I know nothing.

I am cool with not knowing anything about fitness, nutrition, training. It’s fine, I know nothing about cardio training or how to get better at it. I have no nutritional knowledge, I don’t know anything about how to stay in shape because I just happen to do it, but I don’t have the science… Does this make you feel better? Does this make you feel you know more than me? terrific, kudos to you!

If I make you so pissed off, so agitated, why do you spend your precious time reading what I write?If you have better solutions and have results to show, why do you bother reading my rambles? because you get inspired? by what: lack of knowledge? Lack of education? Lack of proof of knowledge? lack of the college and university degrees you have that I don’t?

I wonder, if you are so great at training and practicing what you preach, how come you don’t show it? Why are you just as fat and out of shape as someone who claims to know just as little as I do about fitness?

I ask of you to please lead by example instead of putting people down. If you have a problem with how I write, why do you read it? You got some compulsive issues which means you just HAVE to? Like an addiction? Does it make you happy to build frustration about me and what I do?

I’ve always gone against the stream. It’s not new to me and I am happy I am rugged and rough around the edges. All you do by hating is proving me I am doing something right here. Like it or not.

But, if I were you.. And I detested someone so much I would write whole essays about this or that person on message boards… I would definately check my priority list and get a life of my own instead of trying to downplay someone else’s. Use the hate for something constructive instead of wasting time on trying to delete my existence!