I am not much of a thinker. I consider myself a doer. That does not mean no action taking place in my brain, but I have learned that it does not matter what you think if you donĀ“t act on it. I constantly get feedback from the thinkers who wonder “why don’t you do that, Pauline!”, “Have you thought about doing”, “You would be great for…” It’s always about how to do something, what to do, when to do it and these thinkers happen to have the perfect game plan for ME. Did I ask for it? No. Does it seem like I have no real plan on my own? Makes me wonder.
I’ve never been into trying to find out the perfect training routine or the perfect diet. For what use, since there is no such thing! You know what, I’ve never even tried a set routine that I’ve found in magazines or books. I just don’t like to copy cat, I like to design my own stuff. Sometimes my stuff is not that good, sometimes it’s brilliant, but what I want is to learn by experience, not by someone else telling me how great a method or a program is.
I get asked all the time why I don’t cheat or why I train so much and what I do in my free time. Well, first off, of course I am tempted to cheat just like everyone else, but wanting to cheat does not mean I’m going to. What kind of morals does that say about a person? I mean, if you cannot stay away from a certain thing, in this case some trigger foods, how reliable are you as a person? I cannot help it, but for me it’s important to show loyalty and perseverance. The reason I stay away from the foods I believe is not made for me to have, is because I choose to. I see beyond the instant gain or pleasure I get from indulging.
When it comes to training, I know I train too much. Yes, I am an addict and it’s hard for me to stay away from the gym. But I don’t see it as a weakness. As long as I go there for a reason and that I feel it’s worth it and it makes me feel good, what the heck, everyone needs something right.
So many people believe I would not have to train as much as I do and get the same effect. Most truly yes. But why would I want to train less? It’s not like it’s something I don’t enjoy. I detest some sessions, yes, but if life was all about being into it just when it’s fun, you would not get very far! The most important workouts are those you do when you feel way down, all depressed, miserable and someone let you down or broke your heart. If you go do your thing, nothing can keep you down.
Another topic I reflect on is how come people want to put you down, trying to see your weaknesses, trying to get under the skin just to wear you down. Why don’t we want to help each other by positive encouragement instead of picking on flaws? I know I have many, but you don’t have to tell me about them!
When I meet someone who is overweight, smokes, never exercises and eats junk food every day I don’t start to ask about how it feels to be so unhealthy, if they are worried about their health, what if they get a heart attack or get poisoned by the trans fats in the fries. I don’t say anything unless they ask me. Just like me they choose to live a certain way. If it makes them happy, fine! I know I’m one easy object to pick on: I seem to have no other interests than going to the gym, I seem not to ever enjoy food, I must have some kind of misery on my mind, my body image must be totally off, I cannot be happy etc etc. Well, I just know that I am living life just like I always wanted to and I am proud that I walk my own path. It does not matter if it’s a bit longer than straight up to “stardom” but I do it my way. And that I can stand up for and say “I followed my heart”.