So I reached my goal and now I’m hovering around here. With refeeds the weight goes up for a few days, then goes down again. This is the cruising phase I’ve been looking for.

For the last days I switched my approach in the gym, up til now I mostly worked shoulders and glutes hard, except for not including deadlifts and regular squats, but now, UPPER back, shoulders and glutes are all getting worked hard again. man does it feel great! Some times I felt so lost not knowing what I did in the gym. “How do I go in lift half heartedly? How do I do that???” usually went thru my mind as I grabbed some light dumbbells and just tried to do something with’em….

I’m a lot about all or nothing. Some days I did not know how to approach the weights. If I couldn’t work them hard, how would I do it. It was for no reason it seemed. My mind started to ask me why I stopped deadlifting and squatting… That built my physique for so many years how could I end my love for them? I was confused. I saw other girls lifting heavy and they did not have worry about growing out of their perfection…. So why did I have to….

Now, thanks to my shoots I see what a difference I’ve accomplished to make with this change. I am back to what I wanted to look like, but way better. I can SEE the changes so well. It suits my frame a lot better. I got a bit too STURDY for my lines and symmetry, it happens many times when you don’t pay attention and suddenly you pack on too much and the symmetry weakens.

Frank Zane was never known for his muscle volume, he was famous for his symmetry… And that is what I want to be known for too.

Now, I never stopped training legs, I just stopped doing those big mass builders, I changed my way and did more one legged squats with range of motion in focus. Yesterday I did my first back workout for 13 weeks that FELT like a REAL workout. I did weighted pullups. And when I do those I feel like I am seriously working out. Oh, my muscles loved to be pumped up!!!!

I remember I was worried about stepping out of my comfort zone but did so because I KNEW it was the right choice. I knew it. And point proven and taken.

Now,,,,,, I cannot help but thinking of TRYING to do regular squats (just some) with some heavier weight…. And real deadlifts….. I am just worried it will be counterproductive… I do not want to build those thick erectors again, it does not help my posing for the camera! But maybe…. if I just do singles….. and just once every two weeks….. lol……. it feels like I am having an affair with the weights… Don’t want to get caught….;-)