There is a huge difference between looking like you are one lean, mean athlete and actually BEING one. Looks deceive, the leaner the body usually the more tired and dragging that body is. Right now I am more or less tired all the time. It´s self induced I know. It’s not like I did not know what I’m doing, but still, of course it frustrates me when I meet people who do not understand. I’m not slow or lazy, I just don’t move faster than this! You try my schedule, my regimen and you tell me how fun it is to train? Everyone has a choice and mine happen to be having the LOOK of a lean, tight body. That does not come from eating for performance really. No, just like in all sports where you have to make weight, there comes phases when you are dragging your feet constantly, you are not even hungry because you feel like throwing up due to fatigue. And every little move is hard. The solution is not to eat more to perform better, the key is to remember WHY you are doing it and remember there will be time for recuperation as well. Just not right now.

As a woman, it’s even HARDER to get LEAN than for men. You men may complain, but you go ahead and work with our genetic makeup and try to force your body to get really shredded. It won’t happen naturally by “reducing a little carbs here and there and walk a little extra”. No it takes some intense work!!!!!!

Last week I started with boxing and kickboxing. I cannot come to the workouts well rested and energized. no, this training is ON TOP of the regular cardio stuff I am doing to shed some weight. Hey, dude, I just did an hour of cardio, and now you want me to be explosive and punch harder, faster, faster, harder? It won’t HAPPEN! Give me some slack! No, it does not help you trying to piss me off telling me “do you really wanna quit???”, hey this is my extra activity, a skill I want to learn, I’m not a fierce fighter! I am a novice! And a depleted, brain-not-working-perfectly-dieting motherfxxxer!

Then, is it all worth it? hell yeah it is! This ain’t new, I am USED to dig in DEEP to get what I want! I’m just exhausted. And EVERYONE who is in this field knows what I mean. “HAve an energy bar” is not the answer. Get it, to get lean you gotta sacrifice! If you eat for energy you stay at the same damn weight! You know why so few make it? Because it’s damn tough! And it’s frustrating when your body works against you too. Like mine does right now. It does not want to lose. It is happy it seems. It just takes TIME. I think I see some changes some days, but then, who knows. I just know I must keep on doing until I see what I need.

Right now I am just tired. Drained. I’ve been at this mode many many times before. It does not kill me. But it makes me pissed at people who don’t get the game I play. Or those who never had to diet in their whole life, are pretty lean or skinny and don’t know what the rest of us have to do to get to that degree.

I am also very pissed with lack of knowledge about how the body works: Listen, NO or LITTLE CARBS means SLOW MOVING! You cannot be explosive on NO FUEL suitable for explosive work! It does not mean you should eat a lot of carbs all the time, but you must understand WHY you just cannot do all you want as fast as you want it!

The best way to get really endurant is to train some times when you feel like dying. And then really do the workout great anyway. When you then do the same workout WITH carbs, like after a refeed, DAMN you see how FAST HOW HARD and LONG you can go! I’m surely going to lead by example and bust my ass once more today on those cardio machines.