OK, don´t miss out my updated “Pauline Now and Then”, I am sure you´re gonna get a HIGH from seeing my old old pictures!!!! I am tellin ya, this is the real thing! Oh I know you´ll LOVE seeing me from back in 2001!!!!

ENJOY!!!!! God, I laughed so hard and so much after finding these goodies yesterday! Wow, have I CHANGED! THANK GOD for that, hahahahaha! I hope this serves as inspiration!!!

So you’ve got this perfectly made up bullet proof get back in shape plan ahead of you. And you are super excited. It happens to be friday too, so this will be the last weekend before it’s all hardcore right? Meaning, you take the opportunity to gorge on all the goodies throughout the weeken, because you know (read naively assume) that you will be fed up with it and long for diet food. Then comes the monday. You have it all dialed in: doing weights for an hour, all out, old school heavy and brutal. Cardio, yup that too. Of course on a separate time away from the weights since it’s more optimal. To be honest, you are really on to this being optimal. You are so willing to be optimal since losing an ounce of muscle scares the crap out of you. If other people wonder “is there a life after this one” you ask ” To be lean or to be massive, that’s the question because I want it both”.

You plan your little lunch boxes and you chew down nasty boiled broccoli and chicken because that’s what some pro told you to do right. And you drink mostly water and no diet drinks because they make you fat you heard. Almost getting crazy from abstaining sweet flavors, you don’t want to catch cancer due to aspartame right?

After a week, still going strong. You lost a few pounds. Feeling good. Then, BOOOM, you hit the no motivation dungeon. Oh yes, it’s there you bet, just waiting to bite your head off. You see chocolate bars raining from the sky, you feel like you have nothing worthwhile in your life, you feel like everyone else is much happier because they can eat whatever. And why go train, since you feel all weak anyway. Then your “friends” tell you you need to have a cheat day. It’s good for you they claim. So you do, because THAT will REALLY motivate you to go balls to the walls again. It just happens that you make all promises when you are on a high from sugars and fats, so whatever you say in that condition means nothing. It’s bull shit. We know that next week, after one week being good you will go there again. It’s the typical yoyo dieting scenario.

All I want to say with this is: stop trying to be so darn perfect. Stop looking for the perfect setup. Stop being in denial about easier times, more motivation, better focus. If you don’t own it today you won’t tomorrow. gotta start practicing! No beliefs are of any value if you don’t become a pragmatic student. You are just as strong today as you will be tomorrow. Don’t fool yourself. You may do everything right, but to reap the benefits and success you need to do everything pretty right almost all the time. And by that “almost all the time” I mean the only true excuse is total disaster hitting you. Anything else is doable. Or it takes VISA. haha, ok, the last one was just for fun:-)

Today I woke up fat. haha, well, you know what I mean by that is bloated. BLOOOOATED. I’m female so it’s a common theme and let me tell you who think I don’t have those days… Oh, couldn’t be further from the truth! And let me tell you too that it’s really visible. You CAN tell. Abs smooth one day, then cut the next one.

My mind has been occupied with other things lately so I have not paid attention and now I got reminded about how it feels to feel fat. Guess I’ve been lucky not having had them for a while. A year ago this would freak me out, now I just reassure myself “you cannot gain 3 lbs over night”. I get the paranoia too about “what if I am just getting fat for real!” hahaha, so LAME and it goes against the law of nature, still it gets me to kill on the cardio machine. Nowadays I can look at my puffy booty when it wants to be puffy and feel “hey, enjoy it, FEEL how it feels to be fat!” hahaha, I KNOW I am not fat at all ok, so don’t comment on this with “Pauline, you are NOT fat!” .

One thing that changes when I feel fat even though it does not help to decrease calories for a day to burn something, I always cut down on them when I feel bloated. For the peace of mind. If I am in what I think is bad shape I just take out the oats in my wheat bran porridge. So, this morning I was a bit pissed because I wanted oatmeal but my pride said NO. So, no oatmeal for me today:-).

I got a question about what I do if there is no food around to eat that is “ok”. My answer is I rather eat nothing than to compromise. once again, this is worse for whatever muscle building or fat burning maybe, but I just don’t like bending principles. Nobody’s died from a missed meal or going more than 4 hours betwen meals. I refuse to walk around with a little cooler and prepped meals. The most prep I ever do is having a pouch of pink salmon in my pocket and a spoon.  I don’t recommend being this much a slacker for you who will get so hungry you might end up with a candy bar. I would never end up with one even it was that or nothing for a day. Yeah I know I am stubborn. If that happens, I think it’s just great to experience some real hunger and to feel how those who starve in less wealthy countries feel on any regular day.

cheers

I surprise myself every so often when I reflect upon my passion for iron. I am in general a person who has kind of a short attention span and I get bored easily, I want excitement and I always have some goals to work towards. So, the fact I actually go to the gym almost every day and been doing so now for ten years..doing the same thing over and over… LOL, it’s quite amazing! I wonder what it is that got me deeply hooked and how come it was always that way. My other interests come and go as certain as do the seasons, but this…is different.

Today my laptop died. It pushed my schedule off a lot since I live half my life writing on it, but it brought my old computer back that I had laying in the closet just in case I’d need him one day. You see, he (my computer eugene) never really died a few months ago, no he just had a heart attack or something and got all done and prepped. The apple staff polished him away from all my protein shake stains and pistachio shells between the buttons haha.

My legs were sore today. Did slow mode recuperation cardio and back training. All good. Actually great.

I saw three anorexic chicks on treadmills today. I wish I could’ve talked them straight… But it’s none of my business and I know they wouldn’t listen anyway. I know so because I didn’t listen to anyone when I thought starving and exercising was the way to go. I just hope they come to some kind of insight before they are too deep down physically and mentally.

see ya

I couldn’t believe it when the alarm yelled this morning. Way too early and I was online way too late entertaining myself on the net. I paid the price for that this morning, I stepped out of bed like a dead donkey ready to go stepping around in the gym again. Yeah, this was not my day, if I had some sleeping problems earlier, now I’ve become a bit lazy and prefer to sleep and wake up when I feel like it lol… I cannot do this all the time, I got people to see, dues to pay, haha, but life quality, what is that really… For me it’s being able to wake up when I want to, go to bed when I want to, go train as much as I want to and just spend time with exactly those I want to spend time with. There are so few hours of the day and yes they seem to get shorter each year too, ain’t it funny! It feels like yesterday I was 20!

Morning cardio: could tell I was tired because my heart rate beat faster than usual. I was on a high for some reason anyway so I just listened to my ethnic album on the phone and cruised through the am like a little sailboat on a perfect windy lake. Smoooth…

I got energized in the afternoon, spent some time at the beach which I do too little even though I live a block from it…. This spring I am pushing myself to walk down there at 6 am and just be quiet and look at the sunrise. It’s the perfect start on a great day…. I am also set on doing the coast line route to San Francisco this year as well as going to Paris. It’s just been bugging me. And no, since you so loudly asked, I won’t get fat eating croissants and drink cafe creme and chew on cheese and drink wine…LOL… I will make sure my travel company will do that for me, haha! I am starved on Euro culture. I’ve been looking through those interior design magazines from Denmark..Aaaah I want a Danish open loft in LA! One day…:-)

Ok, so over to the passion of my life: my workouts. I had an outrageously awesome quads and glute workout today. been doing one legged squats russian soldier style almost haha, and JESUS do they hit the glutes!!! I am very occupied with glute training. Come on, it’s the most important part of the human body on both women and man! Strong, well-developed and shapely glutes is a true sign of dedication and taking care of details. You know, what is behind you, you don’t see…So IF you do pay attention to it and it shows, it also reveals you are a person who is less superficial and shallow than most people. Yeah, I know, it might sound weird, but hey it’s also the best insurance for you in the back problem prevention area! The stronger the hips and glutes, the less load on the spine!

OK, so I did overhead squats, regular squats, one legged squats, over head squats, sumo squats which are more like sumo deads with dumbbells, I did some kickbacks for glutes and then two sets of leg presses. I love love looooove squats. But listen, I feel embarassed, I blush when you say I am strong on those…No I am not. NOT at all. Check out the powerlifter chicks or the track and field ladies: they are so strong I am very envious of them!!! Talk about strong legs!!!!

Ok, I feel so happy tonight! I’ve been working on getting more balance in my legs since I overuse one of them and the other one get lazy, and today I felt I got a new little way of adjusting and improving. I am also getting more and more interested in more coordination requiring exercises.

Oh, another wonderful thing…This morning I heard some birds!!!! Bird song!!! You know the old saying “you don’t miss something until it’s gone”? Well, in Sweden during the summertime when the sun never goes down, you hear the blackbird singing and everything else is quiet. Very peaceful… I miss that so I will tell my mom to send me a song with swedish blackbird song so I can listen to it when I go to sleep! I really relaized I am living in the concrete jungle where people put up tents on the pavement and pee in the corners of buildings…Which I love….not the peeing but living here that is..:-)

Good night!!!

Oh, remember, you can order my FD diet sample plan for 9.95 this week. It will come up later in the shop, but if you want it NOW drop me an email with your request!

Soon time for the Arnold! Come chat with me at the AST sport science booth!

I can now offer a “FD diet sample week” for those who want a simple plan to try it out. The ebook will be available in the shop later, but until then send me an email if you want the plan. The price is 9.95 USD.

Biggest reasons women in general don´t get resuls in the gym:

• You so don´t want to do hardcore exercises during which you cannot look like a sex kitten while doing them. You may even look really bad since they require EFFORT, so you stay away.
• You are wearing outfits that don´t let you focus on the movements and power output since the outfits require pulling up, pulling out, pulling in.
• You are wearing makeup and don´t want to break a sweat and that leads to zero effort.
• You believe so well you gain muscle sooo easy you refuse to pick up some real weights in fear of looking manlish.
• You try to get lean when there is nothing to lean out. Too little muscle.
• You train legs to feel the burn. Means way too little resistance!
• You refuse to dig deep with the squats and fall victim for the butt blaster because you feel the burn. Stop it damn it, the burn is because you isolate! isolate won´t create an award winning ass!!!:-)
• You refuse to train out of the fatburning zone because it´s hard and makes you look all out of breathe. which is the point, but that you don´t accept.
• You refuse to cut some of those crappy “woman snacks” that is yoghurt, fruit, cereal, bagels because you were taught they are healthy for u. YES, they are healthy but did you forget the woman body does not want to be as lean as you want to?…

For the men… This is why you get stuck in your little routine…:

• You neglect the major turn-on body part by women: glutes. Listen gentlemen…We want a round behind just like you do so do your wide stance squats regularly!
• It does not matter how thick a chest, it just does not look as strong and attractive as does a broad back! Remember thickening your back!
• You blame everything on genetics  and that you do not take drugs like “everyone else”. You forget to remember the every day chew down on pizza, beer, too much junk and forget to visit the gym some weeks. You still blame it´s all about the drugs…. And you also truly believe beer gut runs in your family. well, maybe the FOOD choices run in the family.
• You blame age being the number one factor for being out of shape and you say this being 30 something???!!! Jesus, you are just a baby!!!!
• You think biceps are most important to attract women. uuuuh NO.
• You refuse to do “lady moves” that target hips since you are afraid they will make your ass wide. What they do is strengthen your body so you can grow allover, but that you refuse to acknowledge.
• You so want to gain muscle you buy those super gainers with 1000 calories per serving and you wonder why you get smooth????
• You have just ONE fat deposit and that is your abs so you think it will come off with ease. No it won´t, you will need to work even harder for that!!!
• You train with guys that are weaker than you so you feel better about yourself.
• You think you can follow an IFBB pro bodybuilders routine, copy cat his diet and training and look the same.
• You say “if I did the same drugs as that pro bodybuilder” I would look just like him. No, just like you won´t be world champion in high jump because you train super intense and are great at high hump.. Not everyone can be a great bodybuilder, not implying it´s anything to strive for, just telling it the way I see it.
• Oh, this one is good: you don´t train with a female trainer because you think she does not know as well as male trainers about how to make you progress. If it makes you feel less of a man training with a woman it just shows you are really insecure in your manhood! Grow up!

Sorry, don´t want to be rude here, but Sometimes I just want to blab!;-)

I got a question today about my post “generic monday” and how I changed my outlook on life and what it was like before I changed it. So, I thought I’d share with you all in case someone wants to know.

My outlook used to be being angry and feeding off negative energy, getting angry at anything and everything to get that adrenaline going which makes you train with allout intensity. I had to change it and one day I got kind of a “revelation” or I really realized that I myself choose to do what I do and that if I want to be happy walking the path I’ve chosen (which entails very little of the  conventional western world’s conditioned necessities like good, calorie laden treats, desserts and dishes).  I had to change and be positive and instead of seeing my path as one of deprivation, I turned it into being a path of insight. It was as simple as that. I practiced this for years, day in and day out until it became my true opinion.  I reached my nirvana.

For me, what I do is my religion and I stand up for my beliefs for the sake of it, not that I have to. I know one bad meal won’t hurt me, I am confident I don’t overeat or find a meal so delicious I cannot say no to go for another one. When I get stricken by a sensation of wanting something, I am experienced enough to know it will fade away. And that treat I desire will be there for me another day.  I don’t get tempted to eat something less perfect for me, I am too aware of what it contains. It gives me nothing than instant pleasure and instant pleasure does nothing for me anymore. It’s a passion I can only describe as a religion, just this one has no god, no higher power or force.

I gain so much strength by practicing my religion day in and day out. I feel like I made it to a higher level beyond competition dieting, beyond yoyo dieting, beyond being occupied with losing pounds and then gain it back. I am in balance. I feel balanced. I am very lucky. Sometimes when people ask me “don’t you feel like having some really great chocolate some times?” or “don’t you miss bread?”. All I feel when these questions pop up is ” I’m beyond that, I’m beyond falling for temptations. And you know what, I am not even tempted anymore…” Discipline your dedication and you will come over to my side too.

Time for us all to make some good business folks. I get many emails with tons of questions…And I cannot respond to them all… I do offer my personal coaching, but times are rough and I hear you on the money issue! Sooooo, this is what we will do. If you want your LONG email to be responded to with a little more than “yes. No. It depends. Good bye”, meaning a PERSONAL email response, all you have to do is to refer four people who purchase my FD ebook! Tell the people to add info who referred them to me. If you succeed to do this, you can go ahead and be certain I will give back with a little personal attention!;-)

Bring the trumpet and shoot: it’s my 10 years anniversary of my GYM TRAINING today! Ten years ago at 17 I went to my first gym and told the instructor “I want to compete in bodybuilding in three years and I want to get strong!” I wonder if I knew it would last with me for good….

My life took a total turn on that very special day. Up to then I was a very ambitious young woman who wanted to be a journalist, a tv profile, I was going to university to learn about politics and the world so I could be one of these correspondents outstationed in the middle of nowhere. My other interests before I found bodybuilding was drawing, playing the grand piano and classical singing. All those interests faded when I found my new call… My sister became the opera singer instead, lol!

Some days I feel like I know nothing at all. I have no backup plan. What if something goes wrong? What if I get really sick? What if the economy goes so much down and I cannot support myself? I tell myself, Pauline you can go to college and learn whatever you want when you are 35…. I envy those who have fancy degrees and been to university. But then I wonder why do I believe they would be better off than me?

I had a few regular jobs before I finally made it to doing this which is I don’t know LOL… I took care of elders, I was a black jack dealer at night clubs, I was a waitress, I took care of horses, worked at a sports nutrition store… And then I got the TV gigs. Those were the highlight of the years in Sweden. Being on TV as myself the trainer and drill sergeant Nordin. HAHA, that I would like to do again!

I know everyone has these thoughts of not knowing, not being anything, just drifting around…But then,  most 25 year olds are still out partying and don’t bother about doing something more productive than getting drunk and having a fun time for that particular moment.

Over to something else, this sounded so depressing…:-)…I am soon going to the Arnold weekend. Ohio here I come! Last year I found a wonderful kind of mustard I have not found anywhere else. Giant Eagle and some brownish german style mustard. I also found extra dark hershey’s cocoa which I couldn’t get in LA. Guess I will call and reserve them all!

Today cardio, prehab am and a long two hour massage. My body is sore allover for some reason. It will be gone tomorrow.