When I started bodybuilding I never had any role models. I did not have any women I looked up to and wanted to look like. It was very little about the body’s look that attracted me to the sport, it was the lifestyle, the discipline, the dedication that caught my attention and kept it for good. I had an inner vision of what I wanted to be like, I did not look at pictures, I just knew I had it in me.
Now, it’s funny, I always loved the look of athletes like track and field ladies, dancers and most other athletes who all need to watch their weight in order to be as light but as powerful as possible. This is not the look bodybuilders want, bodybuilders want excess muscle. Volume. Sweaps, bulging muscle bellies.
Yesterday however I finally saw this woman at the gym who I believe is an ex athlete, like a distance runner maybe? She just comes in, stretches and does cardio. She is very very lean. Tall. You can tell there is no bodyfat on her more than just the necessary layer which keeps her looking just fabulous. As I approached the machine beside her, she looked at me, I smiled, she smiled back. And I knew, THIS is what I like, THIS is the kind of body I always wanted. Super tight, super athletic, lean. She is very pretty too. It’s the first time I find a woman I want to look like. I will tell her next time I see her.
I got some questions about if I miss heavy training? No. Not at all. I thought I would, but my body feels so much lighter, less sore, less achy muscles. So I feel better overall. I felt a bit overweight being dense at 121 for my little 5′2 stature. I would not have those muscles without lifting a lot of weight for a long period of time, so I guess my body loves the break from it. I do play with the thought of regaining the muscle, but nah don’t think I will have the desire…
I never thought I’d have the luxury to shed muscle to get smaller and just tight. Wonderful after years of fear of losing any lean mass at all! lol.
I don’t even miss working out like I used to. I love lifting for the effects it has on my body, but when it comes to endorphins, cardio work releases more of that! Now, when the lifting has a negative effect for my goal (for now anyway), I don’t miss it. I have a life, I enjoy way more things than working out. Heck, I prefer getting a massage to lifting! Always did, Always will. I am pretty lazy .
Guess I am a true bodybuilder in that sence: I lift to look a certain way. It just happens to be NOT lifting bodybuilder right now. I should switch to call myself a BODY SHAPER. Because that suits me better right now!