My body is not a metabolic prodigy. I was not athletic as a kid. I was brought up in a household where delicious food was served daily. I always had a big appetite. My family were not into sports. I always gained weight easily. And I always refused to take short cuts. Still, my desire was to be lean and muscular not only for a show or two but for all days of the year, year after year. So I started to condition my metabolism by never giving my body a chance to get fat. I forced myself from detesting exercise to learn to love it. I stopped eating foods that apparently made me stay somewhat lean but not cut. I took all these measurements to reach my goals, to go against genetics and upbringing.
I realized early about the importance of food. When I was 8 years old I knew this big belly fat man. He always brought me candy and he drank coke every day and then fell asleep. I saw the connection. I did not want to get fat. So I stopped eating candy.
A few years later I tried to take control of my teen life and stopped eating. I thought I’d get a sixpack that way and sure I did, but little did I know about nutrition and exercise… I was right in one way: to get shredded you cannot eat for energy, you need to eat to survive more. And that I did for a few years.
After that came bodybuilding. Oh, one was supposed to eat? Wow, that was something new. A caloric level of 1000 a day was perceived as a feast for my famined body, I grew like weed. And I got strong fast because I loved lifting heavy and I was not at the gym to check out guys. I was not interested in guys, I was interested in building my body.
I often get the question “how do you manage to train so hard yet you don’t eat to support the training?”. If I were to eat to support my performance I would not be as lean. As a woman it’s harder to stay lean, guys can usually cut a bit of carbs and get cut with abs, striations etc, but for us women we need to deprive ourselves pretty good and still we just look healthily lean right? From my years of not eating I learned that feeling hungry is not dangerous. it’s a natural normal sensation…. You get used to it and you find other energy sources to dig in to. Like motivational sources, humor, friends, music, art, movies, books, sounds, habits, perceptions. You make these things work for you instead of turning to the instant gratification of delicious food and treats.
Now I forgot what I was talking about, my mind drifted away. But to cut to the chase: we all choose our paths, I don’t complain because I “have to do this and that” and “it’s unfair” or “nobody understands what I’m going through” etc. I don’t compare myself to the drug-taking, genetic freaks with nothing to do than to train and eat. I compare myself to people in starving countries. THEY are the ones to talk about “it’s unfair, I have to do this and that, nobody understands what I’m going through”. For me, well, I consider it being under my dignity to eat more than I need when I know there are millions who don’t even get some food every day. I feel ashamed for our obesity and laziness when I see and read what’s going on in other countries. Shame on us then nagging about being hungry. LOOK AT US, we are MUSCULAR, we are LEAN, we are healthy, we should just shut our mouths up and dig deeper and realize we are overfed and our muscled bodies are proof of it!